Thursday, November 29, 2007 @ 3:17 AM
sickly me...pasir ris park/bytch

todae woke up at 8 meet up wid mui mui, sherilyn, n hidayah at 11...went to buy tickets then watch shw.its stupid but nice...startin is dumb m i feel like a kid.is like old daes startin wid once apon a time n end wid happilyeva aft...wth there is no shutch ting nwadays lor....

abt 11.20 littat then da shw finish...meet up wid walton n kj say wadeva make fun wid kj n sherilyn...nt me oni walton oso.....in fish n co. while w8in 4 food walton was lik keep on touchin da christmas decoration....it ball.ahem.is seem so wrong.....then tok tok wit kj n walton mostly coz da other three gals was like tokin among each other lik i m invisable...tok oni abit.food came drinks came,kj started playin wit salt n pepper....its lame but i played too...then he make heart then walton go cut it lol...aft tt pay bill le sit dwn there walton started puttin pepper in side da cup...a lita bit oni then da kj go shake shake shake then alot come out...then i added salt in too haha...then walton added chilli, i add tatar sauce...they all ask sherilyn to drink...i drank taste super smelly...i hate garlic n ginger it taster so awful...

blah blah blah went to pasir ris park nic did nt go damn idiot always lik tt.....then nw i alone again...nsherilyn n hidayah was lik so far away...then the boy n i tok tok while walkin there...walton curse my mother fuck lar....say me nt enough go say my mother chee bye!!! then reach there went to play sand play play saw one millipede i think then all scream scream then run away...sat bck dwn there at da stone...hidayah damn argh!!!wa sit wit da boy then was like u go there sit dwn 1st lar!!!pls lar hidayah...stop being so toot can......?!

a while lata all emo see wave kj was like super emo then walton keep on eatin non-stop dumb dumb...then hidayah say he lik wu zun...er?! ate toffifee, then sudenly rqin wth...i lost my umbrella...hidayah dun hav umbrella....sherilyn got ...didnt noe...they all walk walk eventually ps me again...then walton was like "natalie like so loner lor..."ya i noe i foreva kena left out de u dono meh...then throw stick hit sherilyn's head...then laugh like monster all walk away....

da rain b came quite heavy then kj n walton was like found a rock...then they throw again almost hit my head.....stone lor damn it.sniffin n coughing al da way felt so cold....then was like super hot. dunno wad lar...felt lik vomittind ah wth....anyways they dun even care n like sherilyn share da umbrella wid hidayah...ok fine i m sick n i m walkin in da rain.c wad kind of frenz izit?!then tell them tt i sick they say wad oh ur prob lor...ok nw realise i m like wad?! ok doesnt matte anyways nobosy even care lor...so i oso dun care le lor drink cold green tea n nw i m lik coughin all da way....went to pasamalam walk walk then went to buy doughnut....

eventually buy bbt.....they say hungry no $ then help them lor...n keep on sayin $ fall frm sky...i dun care lar...if pple take "advantage of me" then let it b lor...they r my frenz wad.......i nt evil mah.
went to mrt without boys they all...so lonely. hidayah n sherilyn was like tokin to each other i did really care le then stand suddenly kj n walton inside da train too.....went thailand wadeva dun find it funny...n besides is her ear got prob so dun care...they all alight at tampines i did wan to go dwn......so took to eunos lor...folo them oso loner so wads da point?! kj was lik said bb so many time....lol. inside da train got two indian stare at me i damn hate it lor...i dunno y idians always stare at me wads wrong wit me?? ya lar mayb bcoz they hav nvr seen such an ugly chinese woman in their entire life lor.....dun giv a damn went home blah blah blah...

super tired n sickly...a noe wad?i pratically bathe sittin on da floor.lol....

finally realise tt i m jus a duno wad if wan to tok to me then tok dun feel like jus dump me away....k fine i dun care le jus let it b lar i dun care le anyways i dun care abt da world anymore ecept 4 HIM...

Sunday, November 25, 2007 @ 2:57 AM
OVER IT!

finally i got over u....seriously its finally over! i dun feel sad anymore n no regret! YIPPEE!!! n hope both of u...>happy romance muackkies!!!!haha...n ntw i like him again dunno y haha...comfirm le lol...

todae woke up at 10 plus gonna 11 w8 4 my bro wake up he pig lar....then went to chan nrothers thee at paragon i think, then hear them tok abt go taiwan things n stuffs lar...reach ther w8 til 12 plus then start ah crap....it said 12 o clock start lor.then tok less then 15 mins can go le lar waste time man...

went dwn to da restaraunt dunno call wad de lar...wanted to eat tt de lor...is like english high tea lor damn it...i damn long nvr eat there le lor...bias freak...one by one all lik tt. bias!!!idiot...eventually went upstairs 4 floor to eat chinese food...dunno call wad oso...ate dim sum, n alacarte damn cold nvr bring jake then kena scolded by dad...FORGOT BRING MAH!!!wa lao still say wad everytime nvr bring wtf lar...i oni todae nia...if nt once i a pink moon man!!!haha

did went shoppin then went home le...soo early lor. reach home abt 2 plus...greet granny she cry dunno y...lata then realise she said she thought of grandpa...wad last time dun hav $ to buy rice until need to borrow money frm frenz, her neighbour...i really feel sad for her lor...n i m lik damn scared she she dun feel well cannt breath lor...yesterdae oled dun feel well cannt really breath properly le lor....i really dun wan anything to happen to her.AHMA i love u...u dun pok 1st pls!!!w8 4 me to get married la. plsplspls muackz...

ma dye hair 4 me...damn happy n cant w8 to c my results...n noe wad happen to my hair?!actually suppose to b light brown de then b cum wad?!no color cum out de lor...i last time dye hair oso cannt absorb into my hair lik tt de..wth is da problem?everything seems to go oppsite frm me lar...wad i want i will nvr get it de lor....i really make me hat da world n god lar...evrythin good will nt happen to me de lor...simply hate tis world lar...n y my life is foreva so lan de?pple so much betta then me lar damn it!!!

bye go play game le.

oh yeah i got over u!!!n love P yippee dun make the damn fun out of me i tell u two argh!i'll kill u n cry.haha.

Friday, November 23, 2007 @ 2:18 AM
bbq.

i really wan tto go jaslynn hse de lor..azz my dad dumbbo me.y i soo stupid go use internet?!y i so stoopid go call plpe use hp use until boom?!wtf la damn it.....but bro last time oso like tt rite...u oni tell him..then me u scold like wtfing prob is wit u lar...y nw adaes lik tt de...buey song izit?!damn it lar...if u got any dai ji in office dun throw it at me lar cocky ass...thin i youngest then can threat me like ur pet izit?! abdon me lar mf!

woke up todae at 8.30 plus plsu started playin sims 2 pet....lol.da gal like playgal sia...in love wit 3 boys...haha.cannt woohoo coz bro dwn there in da room dun wan lata he say wad i phsyco...if nt even worst as daddy n mama bann me frm playin it or dun let me use com....if like tt i jump dwn of da buildin man!!!since u dun even giv a damn to me oni noe hw to scold...bro u give him so much freedom ...ok lar dun tok so far wad abt yesterdae?!let him go bbq til wad time damn it?! he came home at arnd 11 plus u oso dun care...i need to b bck by wad?....8.30 ah fuck lar!wad kind of bias crap is tis man!!say wad i gal n younger >>>eh hello...u dunnno hw to c i fat n ugly meh?n i m teenager oled k?!ah like hu wanna rape me lar 4 goodness sake...i throw to pple pple oso dunn wan lar damn it.ur brain too immature le lar...

tok to hidayah chat chat say abt his bro n his frenz thingy wan die the other wan runaway frm home?!crap lar...wan die then jus die dun created so much trouble lar......i teach u on gas slp ok le...painless oso no need to pay 4 utility bill haha...

nw nt to do then blog lor...while w8in 4 my mum to fetch me...another irratating person lar toot....
but i dun really giv a damn to her coz nt scared of her de she is jus simply too useless lor...cannt control bro anymore try to control me usin da same method he use on bro eh come on lar...like u think tis method can work meh?!

I M BACK FRM BBQ!!!(11.30 PM)
oo...jus came bck frm bbq.it so fun lar...i mean playing of cards part altought i lost.but oni a few dollar so nvm lor haha...reach there abt 7 plus...saw many familliar faces...n not familliar faces...omg got one boy damn hansome lor haha....my ma's frenz son omg super shuai lor...i kena sot by him but he nvr kena sot by me de...he nvr c me lol...dun care. oso nt say as handsome as my **** haha.....beginnin to hav feelin 4 him again wth haha...but stil got feelins 4 ahem haiz...kena bitten by mosquito on da backside wdh...got clothe oso wanna bite....crap sia tt mosquito dman it!!!damn itchy...played banluck wit mum's frenz....lose $3.50 nia....lol.but had a great time there....next yesar will b going there again haha..next time bring more $$$ lor.i wanna b banker!hump!

oni u n frenz make me feel tt i wanna live....nobody is more important to me then u pple...parents to me is jus crap unless thenlive....if nt i wont b cryin for them lar....althought u cannt brighten up my life,at least i can c a beam of light cummin out frm my heart...if tis dun even live in my heart, then i will really b dead....
this giv me da strenght to hold on till da very last breath of me.like i said i will on gas n die.muackz...lovin u deep in my heart but feelin super hurt in d outside...h.i.p.70%28/11/2007pray 4 u always...

I M ALWAYS WITHOUT LOVE!!!u r my preety boy foreva muackz!!!<3

Wednesday, November 21, 2007 @ 6:47 PM
sorry didnt post yesterdae....

pai sei yesterdae nvr post...ok yester dae basically went to buy books n went home. at home doin nt jus straight on com play oni......then c one of our ss book got one pic look like lee kim seng lol lar...

then went to eat lunch granny cook noodles 4 me >>yummie!!!really love her cookin i mean ya lar....it really nice.then went bck use com alda way to abt 5.25 lik tt off com then watch shw...while watchin rite name in book...tis year like damn litta bks sia.good wad.lol...then pack my cupboard 4 next year books hate it lar...so many craps inside haha..my own fault..then still got things witch is mine wtf all put in my box whack u man toot....
tok to hidayah on hp jas called tok to me a while abt som matter then .............lor.k bye.
lata blog 4 todae if i rmb haha.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007 @ 4:31 AM
i damn fcukin hate it!!!!

todae kena woke up by jaslynn...damn it.1st time can slp soundly lor...if nt always wake up at tt time le....anywaes.so look tru my phone got 1 miss call n msg...cal kj wake up again jing zhun 9 am le haha...so straight away call i stil like gong gong de lar lol...

went to meet sherilyn buy bbt went bck to nic's hse....while walkin talkin abt roysotn damn loudly...then scarely le was likt directly opp us n like starin at us lar wtf!!!lol lar...so called nic came dwn saw him...went up went to room n look frm window again lol like prevert sia....haha.

nic bathe then went to sch...damn scared...my wish came true...4 same class...but realised sumthing...tt person wasnt same as us n i was lik ttly damnit lar....ttly die le lor...then sherilyn pass to me 3 umbrellas....went to toilet n 4gotten all abt it.nic's umbrella was lik manchester united de ok?!limited edition lor...lol.n got pples name n signature start wit ''r'' de lor!!argh...get to carried away le....sorry nic!

went to sherilyns hse...at food.went dwn took hp got 4 mjiss calls...lol.one msg.called bck everybody...then went home.

nvr thought tt our fate was so distant....nvr thought tt v r so close yet so far.didn't want tt to happen.really.althought i m forgetting u i noe...but cannt b frendz de meh?!ah fcuk da frog eye teacher lar...make pple have da subs he doesnt wan...damn it lar...n i dun wan a maths de ok?!i m so lan lar.but 4 u i will stirve to my very best to achieve better grades than u haha...n hope tt same class aft appealin..good luck to u...n me.

Monday, November 19, 2007 @ 4:10 AM
fun dae todae....

Sunday, November 18, 2007 @ 4:42 AM
at home nt to doo....sian

todae is such a boring dae 4 me....woke up at 10.50 damn late k i noe....then at breakfast.daddy packin stuff frm storeroom...took out luggages(1 big,1 medium, n 2 smalls..)2 small is for me n bro one person one...the other two is 4 daddy n mummy n for spare use went v reach taiwan then buy things can put...b sides tt still bringin two hand carry big trolly bag thingy to taiwan to.....so kia su sia v all haha...saw my roller blades which i hav nt use 4 more then 2 years...dad wanted to throw away...i try then stil can wear so suggested to bring it to my popo's hse so can use if go east coast park again wit frenz...lol.
i doubt tt they all stil wan go lor...v have been there 4 3 times in two weeks le stil wan go then i rather buil a hse ther n live haha...paradise.lata kena drown by high tide lol......then i no need on gas die le haha...
ate luch then pang sai....sit in da toilet 4 quite long coz enjoy song while shittin...lol...came out bro usin com so cannt use...anyway nt so interested coz nt to play le...n tt time nt may ple on9.those i dun wan tok d eon9...i wan tok de all nt on9...all lik bat lik tt,...nt aft 8 plus nvr on9 b 4 de lor...sats especially...mostly 10.30 on9.sianz...
so watch shw lor...got alot movie i watch b 4 de so quite sian......so pack yesterdae buy de clothes....c le happy ok put back then go out watch shw again lol...dumb dumb me,..4 plus mama cook wo dei 4 me to eat...nt full le so munch on chocolates...i noe will fat but nice mah...5 plus went to room found wad tummy flatener...sumthing lke tt take out n try ....got spring de mus pull here pull ther i damn scared da spring will like piak lah haha....lucky nvr...heng ah...do abt 70 times bah....feel thiner lol...really!!then 7 lik tt ate dinner mama cook nice foods 4 me to eat yummie!!
ok tts all...
u did realise tt i was always there to help u no mater wad...i did nt ask 4 any return.jus wan to c u happy n tts all i want.when u smile i feel really great.but wen u turn a cold shoulder on me it really hurt my feelins...all tis things u will nvr noe coz u didnt pay attention to me at all....if there is a chance, i will stil do da same...really...if u r happy then i m happy le..i dont need anything frm u.jus lovin u foreva....

Saturday, November 17, 2007 @ 4:15 AM
shoppin-ning....

woke up todae very very late lar...lol.watch shw til 12.30 then went out to eat lunch at parkway parade....at the parway parade thai restaurant....quite nice lar...last time small small de time b4 renovate n shift dwn b lo very nice de....always go there eat...nw oni frm todae started to wan to eat it again haha...dunno wad da hell i m sayin but nvm haha.... at tis time oni 1 plus...satarted shopin 4 clothes....saw winter clothes then go buy buy buy til got alot haha...bought winter hat, winter scarf, n winter 4 da hand wan call wad ah??lol.....tt wan lar k. cost abt $100 plus all together damn ex lol......
puffy puffy de so cute haha...oh ya stil got da ear de...called wad bunny ear cover lol...its pink!!!
then went shoppin again then bro went to popo's hse 1st....bought normal clothes...
daddy went to popo's hse oso...then i bought another clothes....long sleeve de....$48 then went bck to po po's hse saw daddy goin upstairs....went in together then sat dwn.....................
bro ate dinner at 4.45....wth. so early...he need to leave hse at 5.30 like tt coz need go 4 work.then pull us dwn oso...eventually all us three ate too... then leave wit him take taxi then drop him then go home...
hidayah call me coz she bored lol...then wen thome le called her bck she heard daddy scoldin maid coz she went dwn buy rice buy very long abt 1 hr le lor...nt 1st time.....so scold.then a while lata he scold again
coz nvr wash da cup since mornin was there le...haha...
bye!!!
giving up u takes super long...seemed foreva but it does nt. no way to chg it anymore n no way to return to da past.jus the future ahead of us...lettin it go may b pain...but ones pain may giv twos happiness.better then all stuck at the stranded island....at least let two of them take da boat...n one left there..nt all together suffer.ITS good to c ur own lover feelin happy...al dou u may feel super depressed or sad.
loving u still...h.i.p.>30%

Friday, November 16, 2007 @ 2:08 AM
drama club.....dumb dumb

ah dumb dumb........i just hate it lar...y force pple do things i don wan do sia...i seem feelin to quit drama le lar..or jus drop out syf.seriously jus gimme a script n act tt ok...jus don let me thing n cum up idieas by myself pls coz i really cant!!!it irratating lar!
meet up wit hidayah at 9.15 suppose to b 9 but she say she wanna shit.....ah wadeva.camed 5 mins lata.at breakfast then went to sch...4gotten to call daddy toot....go home comfirm kena scolding de....reach le alot juniors were ard there...so happy apon c ing their cute cute faces....wanna pince...but damn tired...so long nvr climb le then ai yo....damn!elnie became uor syf instuctor again....felt happy at 1st....but in d end started feelin to yell at her lol duno y jus pissed...ah....
played game....bang bang.(again..)ah finally got 2nd...i always at 3rd de...contented ald.started teachin craps which i really dun understand n really makes me look so damn retard lar...i m n idiot!!!
............allda way to 1.10 went 4 lunch wit poh yee,n hidayah...
went bck aft lunch elnie gav us like "slp..."feels more like hypnosis lah lol...but did fell aslp alot time le she doo tis wit us but i nvr once fall aslp dunno y...
started teachin inside-out n outside-in....dun really understand....made me do things witch i simply hate lar damn it.....
went home lor...angry n pissed...
neva thought of beeing in such position...haha...ai ya will 4 get de lar...20%le bah/!haha.tink so...stil h.i.p k?haha

Thursday, November 15, 2007 @ 5:27 AM
east coast park again....lol

beautiful dunno wad set... love u haha!!!


really love u.... nicole tokin to roy...gonna jump dwn.


kenaq pai by me lol.toot sia she... ah gongkiee!!!


pose pose!!! mac eatin dinner kena pai by me again...lol


cheezz!!!
ok basically todae was SUPER DOOPER FUN....everything went so smoothly ecept 4 a litta bit stuff n ,ya... emo pples dumb dumb.(me oso a while haha)reach tm interchg a 12.20 ard there bah...nic, sherilyn, n kj reach le...he wear da same shirt again...n sherilyn wear da same shorts again...lol.match.haha. k fine i tokin crap. awhile lata nice aw n jas came too...walton came aft...n 2 buses dble deck da went pass jus n one is the new de....shitty.all b coz of hu?!tt dumb dumb hidayah hu woke up 1 hr b 4 meetin time n say she gonna leave at meetin time...>>>?!azzzzzz lar.!!!lol....so went there sat da single deck bus...played sims castaway...did play more then 5 mins...duno hw to play...n it like pple so damn small... hidayah wanted to lean on my shoudler...lol.wth i m SO nt les. k?!i want man!!!lol..reach there ate bk keep on sayin beef beef beef....crappy ass lar...u religiousiss ah lol.....rent bike n started riding it...lol...
kj n walton use roller blades haha walton is like keep on fallin dwn...haha so cute sia...then mui hidayah n sherilyn go 1st...wth y cant u all jus b together?y muz always seperate de?! took very long time to reach da rock there lol...walton ai yo....so funny lar...#
da rock thre was super nice lar....all da wather ttly cover till a litta bit sand there nia leh...but is so nice...like in hawaii...lol.jus tt nvr wear coconut haha...all climb up pose pose pose then suddenly sum pple emo...ah wth...dun giv a damn played in da water kick here kick there then kj n nicole kena alot time water by me lah lol...
cycled again to buy drinks i was roller blading so dumb can...is like gonna fall lar...da wheel is ttly got prob lor...lol...went bck to da same place then all emo...lol...rote i love u ai ya alot things lar...then i sat alone at da very end of ther stone dwn there...really feel like jumpin...b walton say wad da brown brown thing very pain de he last time kena poke by it so i dun dare jump...really k!!! went dwn n kick sand again...lol.returned da bike...suppose to watch sun set then sat at so wrong dirrections so wanted to move to the other rock but wad happen was tt sherilyn's shoe is ttly went dwn to sumthing yuckky la...is like can even c a damn thing,....lol...so deep dwn there lar...used stone to dig...kj oso dig...lol.then waton pass a metal thing lar i jus use...is damn deep lar!!!then dig le then found it lol kj put his hand pull out but cannt then i help lor...lol.pull al cum out is super dirty lor...n my hand n kj's hand was like EEEEE!!!!!lol...
washed sherilyns shoe one person one wash like siao cannt cum out then my bag n shirt kena bassstard!!!$100 plus da bag kena dirty xing tong sia....lol.washed hands..
kj suddenly say he cut his hands omg...he say damn pain lor...feel so hurt 4 him haha.....is like tt time i cut dat kind lah...pain but no blood de...lol..settled everything went to mac n eat dinner haha...paid 4 two dumb dumbs then went home first wit mui mui,hidayah n sherilyn...lol..they all scare me wa lao...make me hav to ask daddy to call maid to go dwn fetch me haha..... on da way home make stoopid guesses abt a guy hu i simply hate lol...guess wad wad he doin lol lame sia...haha...then mui mui call him to ask tt.wth.AI YA NICOLE...THINK ABT HIM THEN SAY LAH...MISS HIS VOICE CAN JUS DIRECTLY CALL E MAH...Y SO PUO MAH SIA...V ALL NOE TT U MISS HIM SO MUCH OK...CALL ONE TIME NT ENOUGH THEN JUS CALL HIM AGAIN WITOUT PLAYIN TT DUMB GUESSIN GAME LAR LOL....SO HAI XIU 4 WAD SIA....HAHA...
i m will 4 get u la...but really need to take alot of time n effort.......lovin u is alrd so hard n imaginin 4 getin u....is seriously gonna blow my mind sia...haha.next year nt same class then shd b ok le...but nw h.i.p lor haha(healin in progress)argh!!!!i love u deeply n nw have too hate u deeply le haha...throw all da bad things abt u in my head then can 4 get u faster haha...muackz!!!haha... to my next lover!!!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007 @ 4:55 AM
sakae sushi
went to jaslynn's hse at 12.30 sharp reach there...called her then wad say she told me 1.30 then cum.wth?!u said 12.30 de ok!!!lol...so jus went up n slack lor....jus damn hate her sis's tard face lah...jing qian bian leh..asssssss!!so abt 1 plus goin two then dat guy cum to jaslynn hse to take two darn bbg lol...then went in to her hse b coz wan drink water..........er i m like>>>???!!!lol...so eventually he went in jas de room n jus slp on da bed...lol.JASLYNN, U MUZ NEVA WASH DA PILLOW OK!!!lol...got his smell.u can hug it to slp.hahahahaha.....keep on bullying nicole aw lar...stupid azz..nt man sia.then duno y box his forehead again(lol!!!)dhen he like gonna die again haha...i dun even think it is pain lar...he qua zhang oni...tmr gonna fight wit him...boxin contest?!lol...keep on hittin him...he is oso gonnna hit me lah.lol...abt 2.20 lik tt then leave her hse..haha....kj didnt wen teventually...b 4 took taxi he rode off le...cannt c him anywhere...then taxi went fast then scarrly saw him on da road ridin bike lar wth...so damn dangerous lor...n then he is like ridin super fast lar.the bike was like to da left to da right...LOL so funny then he saw us inside da taxi then he rode faster off again lol...ah crappy.

ate sakae....my thing was like all cum at one go...lol.eventually so damn full...went home cant eat anymore.is like ttly boom lan.gonna burst lik tt.haha.took neoprint dhen went home.onda way say nicole mui jus pop out in da middle off no where scare me sia...lol.even nicole aw say tt u walk so ugly spoil da whole image lah...walk properly can nt?!argh...lol..crabby.haha

Tuesday, November 13, 2007 @ 2:30 AM
no cryin to dae!!!yeah...
mayb didnt cry todae b coz c they all happy happy make me feel super betta...wats da prob nat?!jus wake up man!!it'll neva happen!haha...
went to sherilyns hse todae....woke up abt 8.30 bah...feelin stil like tt...dunno wads happenin lar..dumb dumb me. called hidayah at 11.45 arnd there did wake up yet stupid!!!i was like suddenly thought tt yesterdae was stil sundae...then i called sherilyn n ask wad dae haha....dumb sia me.kena brain wash by tt thing le nw lik tard le haaha...dun wan w8 4 hidayah so went there 1st...do da jigsaw puzzle haha...was like 100 pieces lah so many 3 kitties soo sooo cute!!!haha...hidayah called then went dwn look 4 her...saw her ran away then in d end she saw her was like oh dere!!!!haha...then went up crazy hidayah gt prob. sia....keep on usin sherilyn's hse phne to call me like so LAME lar....small sia...breast SOO big le stil act small sia.i was like so pissed...then she scream like nobody's bizness lik tt.siao sia..dumbo!irratating!!!!!agrh!2.30 went to hidayahs hse her mother was like tokin n tokin n tokin none stop lah...(i m ezazuratin k?)but is damn fan lor...i m lik watchin shw here n don u no wad is pls let me watch in peace??!!always da cute cute part then go in chap de u got any prob. wit da shw izit?
SOO damn hugry at tt time...her ma cooked curry n i was lik complainin like heelll lar...is grook grook le lah my stomach.then her ma was lik next time if u wan to cum make appntment hor!!then muz giv service chrg $5...wth lar...is UR MEI MEI ASK US CUM DE OK?!N SHE SAY:''MY MAMEE SAY IF U ALL WAN CUM LATA CAN CUM...''wad der....n is ur mei mei say go herhse de ok!!!nt v!!!get it?!
ahh....
went hme n reach interchg abt 6 bah...saw 65 then ran aft it..balddy fcukin bus lar!!!!inventually wad da teet teet cannt work then all went dwn...dumb fuckin faulty machine..then w8ed 4 bus 22 lor...waste time...MY PRE CIOUS TIME!!!ah...i hav no time left u noe?!i may jus die soon stupid!!!
really tryin to stop it frm bein in my head lar bastard jus fcuk off my mind wil u?!y m i like still tinkin of u?i wan go out de ok...if like tt i won dare to go out le lar!!!stop it!!!argh...hope tt it'll b fast..

Monday, November 12, 2007 @ 2:02 AM
no way out
stuck in tis baddy matter 4 three daes.......wtf.it seemed foreva.no way out.like wad hidayah bk said...''dwn in a deep deep well...''cant cum out sia...tinkin of going east coast park or pasir ris park again...c sun set...duno stil gt tis chance nt.lata i jump sea man!!!DEPRESSION!!!!xD

hw i wish i was nicole....but i oso dun rally wanna b like her...she nw a litta bit sot sot de...nt i say.sherilyn n hidayah say.even worst,lata look like royston...

stil in tis lonely world witch i hav been since i was small......climbed out but so wad?!another world...wad da hell is tt?is called da dumb fcuking loveless world....haiz.y?most pple like me wad....but nt so cham lar.got 3 types of love in da world...1st:family love...2nd:fren love...3rd:bgr de love.... witc wan i have u tell me lar?!family pui ah.....frenz ai ya dun say...love even cham.nvm.so i three oso dun hav hu worser ten me u tell me...i go die suan le lah....haha

Sunday, November 11, 2007 @ 6:09 AM
healin...
once i woke up.....i felt a litta pain...n start to tink abt yesterdae,...then cried again.time will heal NATALIE!!!!sobx...haha.nt his fault oso... love is cruel.haha.....c him happy i oso happy le lor! eh boy, JIA YOU HOR!!!i support u...haha.she is w8in!
went to popo's hse...ate lunch wit my cousins n auntie uncle....went parkway shop shop.then went to east coast park de seafood centre eat dinner...went wu zhao pai...i tell u go there eat the black pepper crab is supperr nice!!!but ex lar..went home le...
love u stil...but wil definately forget...gimme some time...i will..

Saturday, November 10, 2007 @ 8:12 PM

REJECTED!!!!!!!oh wow....shdden hav told him lar...but hope stil frenz.haiz....dun care le..at least i noe.then can like other if gt feelins...haha.I M FINE!!!!lolo...bluff de lar.duh....sad sia...lbut so wad.no body cares....oh me.haha....k...nvm.so going out nt ah??haha....ya nw i hav to listen to wad he had said....time wil heal ur heart....haha..then i shal let time heal lor.haha.i ps le lor....u muz tok to me hor!!!lata i breakdwn man....

@ 6:33 AM
lonely dae.....tip oso.
went out wit my ma and aunt todae...went orchard ate abalone.nt nice de. i dun like....so sian lor go out wit her...always nt to do de..i oni like her but dun lik go shopin wit her...she c so long lah.mafan lor.choose on sweater so long...n buy three same de... is like one $50 then she buy three of the same kind.haha...oni bought on shirt frm topshop...sian lor.shop 4 almost da whole dae n oni buy one shirt which cost me 50 plus buck....damn it!!!
went to shaw tower ate thing dunno wad restaurant ai ya jus eat..... then went home.
u noe wad i really hate tis feelings....since small i have nvr tell to the person i like n its irratating!!!eventually broke my heart...wonder tis will nt...but mostlikely is will lah...really wan tis to b faster....rreject oso good at least i noe he dun like me but i dun dare tell him....wtf...help!!!

Friday, November 9, 2007 @ 8:40 AM
decision
i think abt it le......i nw really noe hu i REALLY like.i didnt thought tt i would like him till i really sat dwn n went tru everything.....jus haven my mind cleary ritten b 4 i slp....he is the one.no more doubt abt it...nw then i realise tt the one i thought i loved was only crush...but tis, is truly,deeply....but he will nvr noe.jus love him n c him if got chance to go out wit him lor.... i dun set high hopes coz i noe myself....i noe wad kind of image i hav... so i shd nt tell him..i m afraid of losing even this frendship v hav....wad if hi really does tt? then i will b left alone.i rather leave it like tis....unless...nvm.it wont happen to me.

@ 6:26 AM
t.i.p
oh wow...nw hu der hell i like nw???u confuse me!!!argh!y suddenly pop out in my mind make me so confuse....i like u nt??wad der hell lar...ai ya...like oso no use, u oso wont like me de...
todae so sian...at home cannt go out coz of my dumb leg...still so pain lor.i realise there is a black black thing in it which cant b washed out lah...i duno izit the clam shell nt...then wound like close le lah...i cant get it out..i scared sia.haha.
played full screen game 4 the whole dae...ate curry noolde for lunch....played again.no more le.
i love u? pls get tis rite fast....if nt i will land in depression again.nw wad....two person in mind wader hell...i m so fcukin confused!!!!ah!!!help.....I LOVE U- to either one...

Thursday, November 8, 2007 @ 4:41 AM
east coast park!

Wednesday, November 7, 2007 @ 6:02 AM

todae nt to do at home.sian...still thinkin of wad will happen tmr.ai ya!!!kj!!!i wan kill u lar bohdoh.playing fs gaem the whole dae till evenin...then bro hog com using dad...bias freak!!! make me cannt use com...then i tou tou snatch ma's labtop n use b4 she use...haha.hidayah called at 9.55am...wanted to tok 4 five mins nia...but always cannt de lah.haha tok till nw still haven put dwn haha...dats all.mayb need to give up again always sad sad then dun feel lik le haiz.....
in delima to love u haha.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007 @ 4:02 AM

woke up at 9 sharp tis morning at bathe n leave hse straight...fetched sherilyn.reach jas hse le oni got nicole aw there....lookin tru recipes to bake. then drank 7up.read n read...then all d important de things all dun hav le so go dwn sheng shiong buy...went up n go dwn to fetch boys again...wth.then at the lift there all went missin.sherilyn is like shout 4 them lah...lax.then all went up then started bakin while de two boys watch cartoon...slack.jaslynn served them doughnuts....all snatch like stupid idiots...then serve pop corns oso.is like gonna burst lor.then while w8in 4 the thing to cook v me sherilyn and the two boys sit outside like sir stamford raffles like tat then nicole n jas is like in the room dunno do wad...go in go out go in go out 4 times.actually take kj hp 4 dunno wad lar.the got dought nuts again....all snatched again.then left one 4 royston...lol.orange ma.run till nw stil haven reach!!!haha...then ate ice cream dunno wad then the fuckin sis can go eat shit n die lar!!!!like so bytch lor. act oni..

went dwn to buy food but wad hapen??!! walton all bring the bike go dwn dunnno 4 wad lah...then nicole wan w8 4 him...he ownself say dun wan go in le cannt go in then nicole stil go poposely put the wallet in between the lift dunno 4 wad then the whoile lift cut off then went dwn by itself for like half of the storey then v all try to open the the door like ee!!!then i scream like hell then dunno y went up a lita bit again...but stil cant open...then ask walton to call the no. to openb...lol...then kj jus ttly pry open lar!!!power sei!so pro sia...can jus open like tat.... stong de lor...then all ra out haha.....all gals went dwn by stairs coz the other lift walton jump n knock then all scared de... came up sat at livin rm eat cup noodle then 4 no reason say sun thin the kj go call the person lor...zi bye lah...wa lao.then go send msg to tat person.toot u lar!!!nobody do anything to u n ahem then u go send n call tat person tok crap 4 wad?!wa lao.......then did tok to him. sherilyn u n him wtch out man!!!! then slowly dunno start to tok lar...but stil angry lor wa lao...hate u lar!argh!
playing batminton outsid e the hse but the shuttlecock went in to her neighbours hse...lol..played volleyball outside a while then went in again...playing blinde mice then the sista poposely go in the room and 'take things'then v all w8ed quite long then dun care her so went out the she folo...wa piang loner sia she....stalker!!!!then wanted to play outside.....nicole n jaslynn is blindfolded.....then while playin her sis lik tryin to sabo me n sherilyn lah....then tok to her small bro...wah dumb man!!!like tat oso tell secret...ask her bro folo ,me lah...duh!!!then wadever place i go he folo lor...dumb sia...then saw the sis go put cushions n all those hard hard stuffs on the floor....wad her prob man?!fuck lah........then went finish all took out the jas go push her sis dunno wad lah...quarrel.then she went dwn lah....go hide jaslynn de spectacles....wa she really damn lame sia...i really wan spank her face lah.... elder then all of use ecept kj lah..same age...then still so like childish lor.she four eye froggy ah!!!nerd!ugly thighs!!!bucky teeth!!!haha...

Monday, November 5, 2007 @ 4:06 AM

Sunday, November 4, 2007 @ 6:03 AM

wad is the real goal for me to live on???i need it badly.i almost gonna land myself into a very deep trouble,which NO ONE could help me....nt even myself.biasness is filled all in my head.hatred is shown in my face....all these r the onli thing u gav me..exept 4 a veri little love than touches my heart.the rest is total anger....I M PISSED!!!
troubles seemed like neverendin to me...frenz does nt come across such things...at most i could say is half...or mayb lesser than tat.no one has suffered more then me.i hate it!!!
ok....i say it simplier k?i dun feel like living like wad the fuck lar!!!!i dun wan to live this kind of live anymore!!!i need to b cared!!
if i die...n if there is recarnation...i may recarnate to a better life!!!hu noes?or if i get a bad life like again...then i shall repeat everything.DIE!!!
today biasness had taken place everything in my life...love my bro...hate me.tats all i can say...look into the news if u r few tis 2 months!!!i may b up there!yae!

Thursday, November 1, 2007 @ 2:09 AM

wads more do u expect to get frm me???all i can say is i am gonna go mad soon k??imagining urself like in the jail??feelin lost n lonely...can tok but can c...cant c and can tok??hw woud u feel???
y am i treated diff frm other pple?y i m always suffering in darkness without pple noein??while i cried were u even there??n do u noe tt?well......i dont wanna giv a damn anymore but i can lar!!i m like kena sentence to jail for 2 mths lar...unless sumone rescue me lah....bring me too sentosa or east coast park n let me shout the fcuking hell out lah....
no-one understands my tots.....nt even my closes fren or kin....they dont no wad m i thinkin...sumtimes i find tat r they even close to me...or r they even related to me.
i need sumone who understands me to help me get out of tis situation wich hav been kept in my head for 14 years.....anyways... i will nt like throw it out onto m frenz lah...i will oni throow it out onto the air,wall,or mind......so they might b my bf bah...haha..tats all
nicole-ah!!!i really missing u u noe??u lar!!!make me so depressed.i dun even noe wd der hell is happenin to u lar!!do u noe tat v all very worried 4 u nt?!
sherilyn-haiz....save me lar pls....hope tat u understand.but sumthings its hard to say it to all of u.so...i felt tat i like dunwan give u all save me lor...but i have secrets lah...cant tell u de secrets...if u wan noe.........................................................learn hw to tok to the wall,air,or my mind lor...lol.
hidyah-ai ya...u c le wan help oso no use de lah...cause ur tinkin is chao positive de...but i will try to learn frm u.stay happy.tats der oniway...tc