But I’m not gonna cry.

Thursday, November 1, 2007 @ 2:09 AM

wads more do u expect to get frm me???all i can say is i am gonna go mad soon k??imagining urself like in the jail??feelin lost n lonely...can tok but can c...cant c and can tok??hw woud u feel???
y am i treated diff frm other pple?y i m always suffering in darkness without pple noein??while i cried were u even there??n do u noe tt?well......i dont wanna giv a damn anymore but i can lar!!i m like kena sentence to jail for 2 mths lar...unless sumone rescue me lah....bring me too sentosa or east coast park n let me shout the fcuking hell out lah....
no-one understands my tots.....nt even my closes fren or kin....they dont no wad m i thinkin...sumtimes i find tat r they even close to me...or r they even related to me.
i need sumone who understands me to help me get out of tis situation wich hav been kept in my head for 14 years.....anyways... i will nt like throw it out onto m frenz lah...i will oni throow it out onto the air,wall,or mind......so they might b my bf bah...haha..tats all
nicole-ah!!!i really missing u u noe??u lar!!!make me so depressed.i dun even noe wd der hell is happenin to u lar!!do u noe tat v all very worried 4 u nt?!
sherilyn-haiz....save me lar pls....hope tat u understand.but sumthings its hard to say it to all of u.so...i felt tat i like dunwan give u all save me lor...but i have secrets lah...cant tell u de secrets...if u wan noe.........................................................learn hw to tok to the wall,air,or my mind lor...lol.
hidyah-ai ya...u c le wan help oso no use de lah...cause ur tinkin is chao positive de...but i will try to learn frm u.stay happy.tats der oniway...tc